I'm Not Very Good...

... at goodbyes. In fact, I usually end up writing a card or sending an e-mail since the last minute words never seem to be sufficient, to convey exactly what you're feeling... and if you do say something it plops out suddenly, goopy and untidy, a mess of words and emotions that you never meant to say... especially so incoherently.

All of this a precursor to saying... Gabs and Momo are leaving CVE to live with Bob & Joy Huber and their family in Imuris tomorrow.

And I'm probably going to "goop."

Eight months doesn't seem like that long. It certainly doesn't seem like long enough to give your heart away so totally and completely. And I know there are those at CVE who have been here much longer than I have, and whose hearts feel just as bruised as these two leave. I love these little guys, and they have made my life here at the orphanage a joyful time. Yes, there are tears. Yes, it will be hard to see them go, just as it was hard to see Timi and Andres leave... but we know that God is in control, and that He has a greater plan for all four of these boys' lives than we can even imagine (and that sounds a lot more secure than I know I can sometimes feel).

Praise the Lord that Gabs & Momo are going together and they are going to a Christian home where they will grow up hearing the word of God from a mother and a father... what more could we ask than for them to have the opportunity of one day serving Him and becoming a light for Christ in this world?

Les amamos tan mucho, y sabemos que su mano, nuestro Padre Celestial, es sobre todo que va a pasar en sus vidas. Gracias por la promesa de tu amor y tu fidelidad. Ayudanos para tener confianza en sus planes que no podemos ver; cada día mas Señor... cada día mas.

I'm finding myself at a loss for words
And the funny things is it's okay
The last thing I need is to be heard
But to hear what You would say

Word of God speak
Would You pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see
Your majesty
To be still and know
That You're in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness
Word of God speak

I'm finding myself in the midst of You
Beyond the music, beyond the noise
All that I need is to be with You
And in the quiet hear Your voice

I'm finding myself at a loss for words
And the funny thing is it's okay

("Word of God Speak" by Kutless)