Yesterday I tried to drink from a rainbow. I let my hands drift through its jeweled rays, watching the colors shimmer across my skin. I cupped my fingers to drink its light, but the colors slid through... elusive, beautiful, an untouched promise.I so badly wanted to drink the music of worship and praise and strength... but then I looked again and the rainbow's light had melted away. All around me was barren, clinging mud. I struggled through the mud, sinking deeper with each step as I tried to remember the beauty I had seen, ignoring the heavens above. The more I struggled, the dirtier I became, the less I called out to Him. The clinging muck at my knees, I tripped and fell. Crawling now, I stopped looking upward, consumed by the dark, damp seeping through my shoes, sliming my clothing, staining my soul... what could I do? Where was my strength? And finally... I couldn't move. There was only darkness, and I was sinking... up, up, over my head. A weight so heavy I knew I could never lift it alone crushed the breath from my body, my heart wilting in despair...
"He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler... For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways. They shall bear thee up in their hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone... Because he hath set his love upon me, therefore will I deliver him: I will set him on high, because he hath known my name." - Psalm 91: 4, 11-12, 14
The heaviness ceased, and peace fell like rain... puddling reflections of His grace all around as I lifted praise to His purpose, His timing, His love... even when I cannot see the end, the middle, or even the beginning of a rainbow.
"Faith grows as we draw near to Him. Sometimes only tears can cleanse our eyes enough for us to notice." - K.P., East Asia
Please keep us in your prayers this week. Clouds have definitely been obscuring the Son's bright rays, but we are looking for the promise in a rainbow... and we know God is faithful.
2 comments:
Steph,
I just wanted to say Hi and let you know how much I enjoy reading your blog. This posting is beautiful and really touched my heart. I see my own self stuck in the mud, not looking up, consumed with the darkness that appears to be all around me. Thanks for the reminder that God is always there and is faithful. Please know that you are in my prayers, all of you.
Love,
Andrea
praying
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